Like any wife and mother of more than 1.5 kids, I definitely need superpowers to fulfill the multiple roles and responsibilities I have without resorting to hair-pulling or booze. But unfortunately, for some reason God is really very confident on the woman that she can pull off all these roles without being homicidical. And I would agree He is right. Although on my part I don't know what I'm doing half the time. I sometimes feel surprised that I remember to feed my kids. But somehow I do.
I have 3 little kids, which I got one after the other. Nico is 2years and 6months, Noah is 1 year old and 3 months and Nathan is 3 going on 4months. I love my kids. I cannot imagine my life without them. When Noah was 3 months old, I found out that I was pregnant again I cried. I never thought that getting pregnant would make me cry. But for the first time in my life I felt this crushing weight of responsibility and the feeling of near to absolute vulnerability. I felt that God has not answered my prayer that I only need 2 kids, and felt the fear of what will happen to my kids if something happens to me or my husband. We are not a young couple. I am 40 years old now, and he is 47 years old. I want the best for my kids, like any other parent, but I felt that we don't have enough of what we need. We need a new house, we need a new car, a minivan to fit us all and some.
Right now we are all ok. I thank God for giving us what we need now. I just almost all the time wish I have superpowers to do all I need to do for my kids, for my husband, for myself and still have enough energy to go to work. I need to be superfast to do cleaning and laundry in an hour, and the super-cooking-skills to feed my kids and husband. I need super-strength to play with 3 kids, and still able to give them showers before my husband comes home from work (this routine happens Mons-Weds on my days off). Ahhh superpowers! Maybe I should pray a novena for them.
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